Oh, the terror.

I am really excited about MAC's Style Black collection to be released in late September. I'm just hoping I can save my money long enough to buy all the beautiful things I want. All of it is black, which is cool, but I just really think I could do something with a couple of the things coming out, not all of them. I don't have a use for black lipstick, but I do have a use for black lip gloss, especially if it has red reflects in it. 

I was saving all my money to run away to Canada to get away from the disaster that is Barack Obama. I voted for him, obviously, but he's not going in the direction I expected. Disappointment is an understatement, and I am upset. 

A friend of mine who does not live in my state was driving through my state, close to where I am, AND DID NOT BOTHER TO CALL ME TO LET ME KNOW THAT PERHAPS WE COULD HANG OUT. Thanks. 

Therapy went well today because my therapist says I am making improvements in the way I treat people, mainly I choose my battles wisely, and I don't waste my time arguing about stupid shit anymore. Go me. I forgot to mention that whole being depressed and feeling slightly suicidal thing though. She said she's proud of me and sees a great improvement, and I feel as if I am back in the hospital, lying to my doctor and my counselor and the nurses and even my roommate. I did not mean to be dishonest though. I forgot. There were other things to discuss, and I suppose it is an improvement that I focused on the positives rather than the negatives. 

I wish my boyfriend would talk to me. For that matter, I wish anyone would talk to me more. My friend sent me a useless elephant from New York with a post card, but he can't bother to call either. That's a friend, right there. I had no idea he was even going to New York, or getting there by traveling THROUGH MY STATE. So I'm lonely again. I like how this is progressing. I feel as though I am in the same place I was last year, breaking minus the job. I don't want to break again. It's a very difficult thing to control.

I have officially decided that the cheapest mascara I own is the best mascara I own.  And I believe it is being discontinued. Thank you, life. Thank you, economy. 

I can't sleep anymore.