Wet'n'Wild "Gray's Anatomy"

Difficult polish to photograph. A duo-chrome that looks gray but flashes green, blue, and purple. It looks purple in most indoor lighting though. I like it. Three coats.

*EDIT*
This nail polish lasted without chipping for a whopping six days. It didn't peel at all either. I had MINOR chipping on the seventh day. I used my usual base coat (Orly Bonder) and top coat (Seche Vite). Great, great nail polish!

OPI "What's with The Cattitude?"

I love this color, but the formula for this polish is absolutely horrible, certainly not up to par for OPI. It is thick and goopy, yet it is impossible to get an even layer. I had to use three coats just to even out the layers. It is opaque enough in two coats, but there is still a tiny bit of show-through, and as mentioned, it goes on really chunky. The dry time is acceptable, not particularly noteworthy. I would prefer this with some glitter (BBCouture makes the perfect polish like this with glitter, and I am willing to bet the formula is less annoying). As you can see, however, in three coats everything looks nice and even. It was just a pain to get to that point. I will continue to search for the perfect this-color as this one falls a little flat. I was so excited about it, too!

China Glaze "Secret Peri-winkle"

OPI "Yoga-ta Get This Blue" with Essie "Matte About You" finisher

OPI Teal The Cows Come Home

two coats

A Few Things

I want to live in the merry old land of England because they get free things with magazines, like makeup items and clothes. Not fair.

I have a lot of books to read. I'll list them below.

A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole. I borrowed this from the love, and I am determined to have this finished this week. I find it very enjoyable, and it's also one of those books that a lot of people always say one must read in his or her lifetime. I'm reading it! And I love it so far. It is a win.

The Dharma Bums - Jack Kerouac. This I also borrowed, and I shall read it when I get to it.

The Jungle - Upton Sinclair. I've started reading this, and I like it so far. I just need to sit and read. It's difficult for me to sit and read.

Modoc - Ralph Helfer. I mentioned this one already. I have read a lot more of it since last discussed, and I like it. Again, it's just really difficult for me to sit and read.

Musicophilia - Oliver Sacks. This book and topic interest me very much, and I am very excited to get to it. I feel that it will be helpful to me.

Roman - Roman Polanski. He's my favorite director, and I'm very interested in his experiences during the Holocaust. He briefly touches upon them in the commentary in The Pianist, but I really want to read the whole story, then some. He's a character, and I like characters. This book was a gift.

The Royal Nonesuch - Glasgow Phillips. I just find it interesting.

Special Topics in Calamity Physics - Marisha Pessl. I've wanted to read this book for over two years. It is now in my possession, and it will be read. Again, I just have to sit and read.

Your Inner Fish - Neil Shubin. This book is about evolutionary biology/evolutionary anthropology, so why would I not want to read it? It directly pertains to my main area of interest, so of course, I need to read it. I can't begin to explain how pumped I am to start reading it and absorb all the information held within it, but suffice it to say ----my heart is racing. I love evolution. I love that branch of anthropology. This is mine! Sit and read.

I am hoping that once school starts I'll be able to sit at school and just read some of my books between working on school work. I purposely set up my schedule to allow myself time to sit around campus studying or reading or any other productive thing.

I stopped taking one of my medications because it made me feel physically unwell, but my therapist has an issue with that. My psychiatrist ignored me and refused to discuss it, so there is a fail there. I am still in my window of titration that I could resume the drug without any scary side effects (like the death rash)if I wanted. I don't think I want. I have to call my psychiatrist and tell him that I'm not taking it because I don't like it. Oy. Meds.

My birthday was ultimately a success. I got a lot of Smarties Lollies out of it. I also got a lot of salt water taffy. I had some alcohol, not enough. I was not drunk. I was slightly tipsy. I'll get good and drunk one of these days just because I can, except I don't like drunk. Oh well.

The color blue is calling to me.

My nails are gorgeous!

So I bought more nail polish. As usual. I can't help it if it's buy two get one free at Sally's, and I compulsively buy things. 

What I Bought:

China Glaze:

For Audrey

V

Ruby Pumps.

Seche Vite Fast Dry Topcoat. 

Currently on my nails is For Audrey, which is obviously a nod to Audrey Hepburn, as it's Tiffany blue, even though everyone knows Cartier is way better. Whatevs. I hate diamonds, so I'll call it robin egg blue. Same thing. 

But it's so pretty! I'm not sure I like it for Spring. I mean--it's sort of like an Easter egg on each of my nails, but it seems more summery. I don't know. 

Now about China Glaze polishes, I prefer the cream ones, like For Audrey and Secret Perwinkle. The shimmer ones are streaky, and the glitter ones are chunky and impossible to remove, though they're all really pretty. I cannot wait to try to pink one I have: Wild Mink. It's so pink! 

I also have more hair stuff. 

I saw my therapist. She thinks my psychiatrist has lost his touch due to his inability to understand the facets of my personality to which he ought to pay close attention, like my obsessive nature and tendency to psychosomatically cause myself to have any adverse reactions of which he tells me of any prescriptions he prescribes to me. Every single time. "This might aggravate your anxiety." Two weeks later: This really aggravated my anxiety. With the new medicine he's given me, I might be able to psychosomatically kill myself! Wouldn't that be something? Only not. I already experienced every common side effect, and I haven't had any of them recur. I hope not to experience any again as they were all particularly unpleasant. I do still have to see my normal doctor though due to general lethargy and a swollen arm and pain and the Death that is quickly encroaching my normal problems. Stupid Death. 

So I've been reading The Bell Jar, and of course it's not particularly healthy for me, except when dear Esther discusses her experience with ECT, I feel like pretending I never feel depressed anyway because even though it's much less terrible now, I'm sure it's quite unpleasant, and these days doctors are just as ECT happy as they ever were. It makes me feel better since I've never been electrocuted. I mean been put through electroconvulsive therapy. Whatevs. I'm almost finished with it. So of course I won't read the last few chapters. I'll move on to something else.

I actually have tons of work to do. A book report, an oral report (with partner), study history for the rest of my life, AND not stress myself to death. Oh and visit the doctor to have her look at this painful, swollen, hard arm thing and make it stop being so painful! ouchies. Seriously. Big ouch. 

It is my bed time. Sort of. 

AND I got an A on my psychology test.

And it continues...

Today I gave in to two of my most severe problems: obsession and compulsivity. 

I went shopping. I did not buy anything though because I found nothing of interest, except this one thing, but I figured it would not fit, and I did not want to try it on, so I left it. I walked out of the store, to my car and cried. Yes, cried. That was the compulsion.

I thought I had an English test today. I didn't. We were watching a movie. My teacher pushed the test back a week, which I would have known had I been to class in the past week and a half. I am having problems. 

The obsessing is something I am not going to discuss openly, but it's something that has caused me most emotional unrest for quite some time, and I HATE IT. The source of the emotional unrest is a person, a bad person to be sure, and this person should be eradicated from existence, or at least my peripheral existence. This probably won't happen. I might have to take certain matters into my own hands, and I know how badly that always goes. 

All the bad is coming back with this new medications, and I don't like it. Doctor on Thursday. He's going to get an earful. I am very displeased. And tired ALL the time. 

So I bought this new nail polish last week from OPI called Gargantuan Green Grape, and I was so excited when it arrived today, so I just HAD to try it out like ten minutes ago. It sucks. It is very similar to another, better, cheaper color that I already have (I was led to believe it was lighter but..not really), and it required THREE COATS. It still doesn't really look particularly decent on my nails. I'm pretty peeved to say the least. 

Also on my list of excruciatingly frustrating things is my boyfriend. What else? He lacks direction and drive and motivation and purpose (like I do), and he has no goals. I don't know how you live a life without a goal. What are you doing? Why do you do anything? And he won't talk about anything, anymore. And he has so many convenient excuses. It's fucking ridiculous. I hope that this is the one blog entry that he actually bothers to read, as he's told me a few times that he has no idea where this blog is EVEN THOUGH it is conveniently linked on my Facebook profile for all to read. Awesome. He's really fine. I'm just really pissed off right now. Three paragraphs ago involves him. 

Happy things to end the post: A lovely friend sent me a pound of gummi Smurfs, and some random, mystery gummi things. I am afraid to eat them, but I am sure I will do that soon. 

I don't have enough blue in my life.