I need to make a list of all the makeup items I want but shouldn't buy.

So that's what I'm going to do here. This is a before bed listing activity that will be good for me.

So I'll start with MAC products and move my way down to ---whatever else. 

MAC

Lip products:

Dazzleglasses:

Love Alert

Funtabulous

Girl's Delight

Baby Sparks

Extra Amps

Money, Honey

Lipsticks:

Slimshine:

Voile

Gentle Summer

Lovey-Dove

Viva Glam:

Viva Glam V

Lipstick:

Honeylove

Lollipop Loving

Myth

Speed Dial

EYES!

Pigments:

Vanilla

Mutiny (limited edition! :o( ...)

Pink Opal

Golden Olive

Melon

Old Gold

Eyeshadow:

Sushi Flower

Clarity

Shimmermoss

Chrome Yellow

Bitter

Orange

Cranberry

Paint Pots:

Bare Study

Rubenesque

Artifact

Painterly

Shadestick:

Taupographic

Beige-ing

Cream Color Base:

Fabulush

Improper Copper

Luna

Hush

Blush:

Mineralize Duo:

Moonriver

Love Rock

Random:

Glitter:

Reflects Bronze

Reflects Purple Duo

Reflects Transparent Teal

Reflects Antique Gold

NYX:

Jumbo Pencil:

Orange

Yellow

Hot Pink

Cherry

Mascara:

Doll Eye

Loose Pearl Shadow:

Charcoal

Baby Pink

Purple

Fanta

Yellow Gold

Orange Zest Pearl

Ultimate Pearl Eyeshadow:

Bronze Pearl

Copper Pearl

Ocean Pearl

Sahara Pearl

Single Eye Shadow:

Yellow

Ocean

Platinum Pink

Cherry

Orange

Odyssey

Africa

Chrome Eye Shadow:

Canary (obviously I need this)

Nymph

Hard Core

Yellow

Princess

Oatmeal

Geisha

Trio Eye Shadow:

Aquamarine

Serengeti

Anti Diva

White Tropical Silver

Liners:

Candy Glitter Liner:

Hot Green

Lavender

Red

Tangerine

Silver

Hot Yellow

Jade

FACE:

Blushers:

Peach

Taupe

Dusty Rose

Natural

Pinky

Spice

Lips:

Round Lipstick:

Pandora

Ceto

Apollo

Galaxy

B52

Earth Angel

Iced Lavender

Iced Honey

Tea Rose

Sunflower

Tinted Lip Spa:

Vintage

Sake

Juicy

Copacabana

Spirit

Matador

Goddess of the Night Lip Gloss:

Lollipop

Sunshine

Chestnut

Dream

Juicy Red

True Star

Taupe

Sugar Pie

African Queen

Sheer Tube Lip Gloss:

Pink

Lip Balm:

Grape

Strawberry

Apple

Watermelon

Peach

Orange

Lip Liners:

Auto Pencil:

Natural

Coffee

Burgundy

Jumbo Lipstick Pencil:

Gold

Iced Coffee

Plush Red

Narcisse

Chaos

Pink Nude

Almond

Vixen

Random:

Pencil Sharpener (for the jumbo eye pencils that I love so much)

China Glaze:

Cherry Pie

Raspberry Festival

Strawberry Fields

Adore

Awaken

Cherish

Emotion

Recycle

Tree Hugger

Hybrid

Unplugged

BFF

OMG

2NITE

Wireless Holographic Topcoat

OPI:

Feelin' Hot-Hot-Hot

Bronzed to Perfection

Overexposed in South Beach

Teal the Cows Come Home

Over The Taupe

No Room For The Blues

In My Back Pocket

Nicole Alert

A Grape Fit!

Atomic Orange

ElePhantastic Pink

Need Sunglasses?

Ladies and Magenta-men

St. Petersburgundy

Kosmo Not Tonight Honey

Kreme de la Kremlin

Dating A Royal

Light My Sapphire

Blue My Mind

Significant Other Color

D.C. Cherry Blossom

Sahara Sapphire

I also really, really, really, really want this.

Now I am sufficiently sleepy to sleep without supplements. Yay! I left out a lot of makeup stuff---it's just that NYX and MAC are currently catching my eyes. 

BTW, I went shopping today (yesterday), and I bought two more t-shirts (the same one I already have in like three colors), one is bright, royal blue (which looks really good on me; I've decided), and the other is pink. I also got an nude camisole to go under my super see through purple shirt that I love and cannot wait to wear. Summer time yay! 

I also got a weird necklace. It has a giant, wooden peace sign on it. I don't know why I bought it. I am sure I can incorporate it into something. 

I hope I get the thing for which I specifically asked as my anniversary gift (WINK WINK), but I'll be OK if I don't. I have spectacular plans. 

I am also planning as many spectacular things as possible for my love dove's birthday. It's just so difficult. I am determined to make us both happy on his birthday. Because last birthday made me miserable. And the first birthday was the worst day in our entire relationship, and I say that having evaluated every horrible thing that's ever happened. It was the catalyst to my crazy. Sorry love dove. It's true. I was discussing this in therapy. 

I went to a party last night. I made sure to look extra cute, and by that I mean I overdressed. I am always overdressed. One boy was trying to impress me for some reason by quoting literature, which I wouldn't except at a super nerd school that focuses on computer science and such, but whatevs. I was wearing four inch heels, and I can honestly say that there were only two guys who were taller than me there, one being my brother. Some fat girl was there, and she kept giving me mean looks. Other than that, it was fine. I didn't drink a single drop of alcohol, and I drove home. I got lost like three times, and I couldn't get anyone on the phone to help me get to where I was supposed to be because I kept taking the wrong exits for some reason, even though I know that I knew that they were the wrong exits. It's the drugs. My brain just isn't what it used to be. I'm going to discuss that with my psychiatrist on Monday, and I'm going to ask him about this face thing, like if it's normal with the new medication I've started or if I need to go see my other doctor about it. I'm scared to go see my other doctor about it because it's so weird and random that I'm sure they'll want to take blood, and I hate having blood taken. It just upsets me. And makes me nauseous, which is unfortunate because I desperately want to give blood. I want to donate blood! Except I think my blood might actually be useless. And it's full of drugs. 

Good night, cruel world.